DEATHIVERSARY: BERRY BERENSON-PERKINS (SEPT. 11, 2001)

Berinthia "Berry" Berenson-Perkins was an accomplished fashion photographer and actor who stood by her husband, "Psycho" actor, Anthony Perkins, through his AIDS diagnosis. Through her better-known sister, actress Marisa Berenson ("Death In Venice," "Cabaret" and "Barry Lyndon"), Berry came to photograph a roll-call of Hollywood stars. In 1973, Berry married Perkins while 3 months pregnant, which prompted her mother, Marquesa Gogo Berenson di Cacciapooti, to publicly call her a "degenerate." During Perkins' therapy to "cure" his homosexuality, he was asked to flip through a Vogue magazine and pick out his ideal woman. He pointed to a spread on Berry. Years later, they met at the townhouse Perkins' shared with his lover, dancer Grover Dale. There was little doubt that Perkins was both sexually attracted to and in love with Berry. Then, in 1990, Perkins tested positive for HIV. He wanted it kept secret even from their closest friends, which heaped a tremendous burden on Berry. On September 2, 1992, Perkins died with Berry clutching his hand. Nine years later, on September 11, 2001, Berry boarded American Airlines Flight 11, which would ultimately crash into the North Tower of the World Trade Center. 

All 92 people on board were killed, including David Angell (the creator and executive producer of the television sitcom "Frasier"), his wife, Lynn Angell. "Family Guy" creator Seth MacFarlane had been scheduled to be on the flight but arrived late, missing the flight. MacFarlane now only flies private. Actor Mark Wahlberg was also scheduled to be on the flight but canceled his ticket at the last minute. There would've been no talking bear movie, and I wouldn't be married to my husband if MacFarland and Wahlberg had been on the flight. But that's a story for another day.

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DEAD IN HOLLYWOOD: 50,000,000 TAB FANS CAN'T BE WRONG (Issue 9)

𝙶𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝙱𝚘𝚢, 𝚃𝚊𝚋 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚐𝚘 𝚘𝚗 𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟾, 𝟸𝟶𝟷𝟾, 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝟾𝟽𝚝𝚑 𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚍𝚊𝚢. "𝚆𝚎 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚢𝚊𝚛𝚍," 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛'𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚗𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚏 𝟹𝟻 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜, 𝙰𝚕𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝙶𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚎𝚛, 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍. "...𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎, 𝚜𝚘 𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝟿𝟷𝟷, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚎 𝚠𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚙𝚒𝚝𝚊𝚕... 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚜𝚞𝚍𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚍." 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚊 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚝, 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚑 𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚌 𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝. 𝙼𝚢 𝚑𝚞𝚜𝚋𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚐𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚛. 𝚆𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙹𝚘h𝚗 𝚆𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙳𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚎. 𝙰 𝚏𝚎𝚠 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝙸 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚜𝚔 𝙹oh𝚗 𝚆𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛. 𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝙳𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝙷𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚠𝚘𝚘𝚍: 𝟻𝟶,𝟶𝟶𝟶,𝟶𝟶𝟶 𝚃𝙰𝙱 𝙵𝙰𝙽𝚂 𝙲𝙰𝙽'𝚃 𝙱𝙴 𝚆𝚁𝙾𝙽𝙶 (𝙸𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚎 𝟿).

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This weekend!

Pick up your copy of the latest issue of the Dead in Hollywood fanzine: 50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong at the O.C. Zine Fest this Saturday, August 24, 2019 at the Anaheim Central Library (500 West Broadway Anaheim, CA 92805) From 11AM-4PM We’ll …

Pick up your copy of the latest issue of the Dead in Hollywood fanzine: 50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong at the O.C. Zine Fest this Saturday, August 24, 2019 at the Anaheim Central Library (500 West Broadway Anaheim, CA 92805) From 11AM-4PM We’ll be in the basement, so let’s raise the dead!

OUTFEST OPENING NIGHT

On our way to opening night of OUTFEST to watch the documentary “Circus of Books.” Circus of Books was the first place that was willing to sell my zines. I remember the owner, Karen Mason, saying, “Why are you doing this? There’s no money in zines.” 😁 I found her candor refreshing and inspiring. Circus of Books gave me the courage and confidence to create. 2 years and 15 issues later, here we are.

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50,000,000 Tab Fans Can't Be Wrong!

I’m back from vacation and I have some very exciting zines and events coming up! So please don’t go anywhere. I’m also happy to announce - and on the deathiversary of Tab Hunter - that I am putting the finishing touches on the zine “50,000,000 Tab Fans Can’t Be Wrong” on the life and death of Hollywood hard on and closeted gay boy, Tab Hunter (for those of you waiting on your orders, I will be doing two big mailings this week - internationally and domestically). Also, if you don’t know who Tab Hunter is you should start watching some of his movies before you check out my zine!

"𝙸 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗' 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚢𝚊, 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚎! 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚜𝚕𝚎𝚎𝚔. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚏𝚞𝚕. 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚑 𝚗𝚎𝚠 '𝚟𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎!"

-𝚃𝚘𝚍𝚍 𝚃𝚘𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚠 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙹𝚘𝚑𝚗 𝚆𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜' 𝚖𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚎, "𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚢𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛."

Deathiversary: There's Always Todd Tomorrow

𝙻𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚘𝚗 𝙹𝚞𝚕𝚢 𝟾𝚝𝚑, 𝟸𝟶𝟷𝟾, 𝚃𝚊𝚋 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚍𝚒𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔. 𝙷𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝟾𝟼. 𝙸𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝟷𝟿𝟻𝟶𝚜, 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚍𝚎𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚖 "𝙷𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚢𝚠𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝙷𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚋." 𝙰 "𝚏𝚊𝚗 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎" 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚝. 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 "𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐-𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚛𝚞𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚜" 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚐𝚊𝚢 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝟸𝟶𝟶𝟻 𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚘𝚋𝚒𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚑𝚢, "𝚃𝚊𝚋 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕." 𝙸𝚝'𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜 𝙸'𝚖 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚒𝚍𝚍𝚕𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 - 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 "𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙽𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚛: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙲𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚁𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝚁𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚣 "𝚋𝚢 𝙿𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚙 𝙲𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚘. 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔: "𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝, '𝙻𝚘𝚘𝚔, 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚜𝚎'𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚛𝚜𝚎'𝚜 𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙸'𝚖 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚎.'"

Natalie Saved My Life Tonight

𝙸𝚗 𝟷𝟿𝟻𝟻, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙼𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚋𝚞-𝚜𝚝𝚢𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚘𝚢-𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝-𝚍𝚘𝚘𝚛, 𝚃𝚊𝚋 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛. 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚙 𝚛𝚊𝚐 𝙲𝚘𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚜 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚞𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚘-𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚕𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚊 "𝚕𝚒𝚖𝚙-𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚙𝚊𝚓𝚊𝚖𝚊 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚢" 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚞𝚜. 𝙵𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚞𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛 𝚘𝚏 "𝙱𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝙲𝚛𝚢," 𝙿𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢 - 𝚊 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚣𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚋𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚒𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 - 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 "𝚁𝚎𝚋𝚎𝚕 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊 𝙲𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎" 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝙽𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚎 𝚆𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 "𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛'𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚙𝚘𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚛 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚜." 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚆𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚛. 𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕 𝚆𝚘𝚘𝚍'𝚜 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙲𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚊 𝙸𝚜𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚌𝚒𝚛𝚌𝚞𝚖𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚜.

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